many say to forget about it, let go and move on. they say that there is no use to keep thinking about the past and regretting your mistakes over and over again. it seems easy to stop thinking about it and do whatever so that you can stay away from it, but there is so much more to it than that. The emotions felt, the feelings that came up and the words used creates an attachment, a connection that cannot be simply forgotten. It is very difficult to fully let go, there is always some part of you that sticks to it, hesitant to do what you ask of it. To be able to fully forget, forgive and not slow down, you must forgive no matter what happened to you or anyone else. There might have been so much more done to you, and your bruises are more than skin deep, but be humble, put others before yourself and throw your pride to the side. You might never be able to forgive others face to face, but putting aside differences, and loving others is the best thing to do so that you can truly move on. Say sorry for your mistakes, immaturity and selfishness, and let them know that you feel that way. It doesn’t matter if they don’t take your apology, what matters is that they know how you feel and it will surely stick with them. It also doesn’t matter that if they never say that they are sorry, if you have truly forgotten, forgiven and gotten over it, then there is no reason for them to absolutely have to apologize. The way you and others act between one another is as good as an apology when trying to get past differences in a relationship. Don’t hastily try to forget and not slow down, thinking that shoving your feelings and emotions into a corner will allow you to make your life better instantly, but slow down. You’ve spent enough time on the situation, so take the time to forgive, apologize, love and.. then you move on. Move on together, acknowledging that you both care about each other and don’t want to make it any worse than it has been. When you move on, move on with the aim of learning from the mistakes that you have made, growing and finding yourself as a person.
Recently, I have had nights where I can’t sleep for a very, very long time. Sometimes it’s because I just can’t sleep. Other nights, I can’t sleep because I have so much joy in God. I have burdens, doubts, questions, worries and things to stress about, but he takes them away and all I think about is his love. I’m overwhelmed at how awesome my God is.
It’s amazing how real memories can be. Maybe it’s because I try not to dwell on them too much, but those times when my imagination takes hold of my memories are amazing. You think back on something and it’s something recent. It’s in your mind and you think about it, but it is fleeting and disappears after some time. During those times when the memory is strong, your imagination makes it so much more than it really was or is.
Life is not to be lived wondering how to avoid being bad or sinful, but life is to be lived wondering how to show God’s glory and love. It’s not about what you can do for yourself so that you can be happy and content, but it’s about what you can do for others for the glory of God.