Imagine yourself and someone you really, really care about whether it be family or friend. Now, the relationship between you and that person might not be perfect, but it is one where both of you care about one another, hopefully. There are some highlights in the road that you and that person take, but there are also many, many bumps in the road as well. Through and through, both of you guys stick together and you have hope that everything will be ok in the end. All of a sudden, you two are in free fall, and you don’t know how to stop it. It gets to the point where the other person is tired of it all and doesn’t want to do it anymore. The friendship/relationship between the both of you is just not worth it anymore for them and they say that they want to spend time away from you. The duration of the time spent away is not set, they never set it. You respect what they want because you care about them and you hope that in the end, everything will be ok between the two of you. You spend all of your time trying to stay away from them and the people that you both know, knowing that the agreement between the both of you permits that that happens. Yet, the other person acts like nothing happened, going to your place and crossing the private boundary that is obviously where you live. You wonder why they are acting that way, do they not care? They sneak around you while they are crossing the lines set when deciding to stay away from each other and you sadly wonder about how low this friendship has gone to. There is an opportunity for you to reach out to the other person and you take it. You ask them to consider reconciling with you and you wait for an answer. You haven’t gotten one yet. You feel ignored and are hurt, knowing and feeling that there is probably no hope for what has happened between the both of you. This affects everything else that goes on in your life even if everything else might be the best it can be because you care so much about it. It holds you back from being yourself and the only way to get through the day is to somehow hold up until you get home where you are so physically, emotionally, and mentally tired that you just sit there. You sit there, trying so hard to hold up somehow. It’s a painful thing when you care for someone with all you have and it seems like the other person doesn’t at all. It hurts a lot when you put your heart and soul into the friendship that you have, but you get nothing from it.
I just need to get through the next couple of days and then maybe it might be better.
the other day in my math class, some kids were talking about this boy who is known by people in school to be athiest. they were talking about him like he was just the scum of the earth. they were talking about how they starting singing Bible songs to him to get on his nerves and that’s when i got…
I don’t know how much longer I can do this. Every time I fall, it’s harder and harder to get back up. Every time it runs through my mind, I just shut down. I don’t want it to be like this, I wish….. someone. save. me.
concentrate solely on your relationship with God. You have school and work to take care of, but God will provide in all of those aspects of life and in every other aspect of life as well while you work on your relationship with him. He is the number one priority right now, you want him to be your everything. You know how when you want to become closer to a person, you spend more time with them? it’s the same exact thing, spend more time reading his Word, singing praises to Him and talking to Him. Everything else will fall into place while you concentrate on making sure that your relationship with Him is right. Every moment of your life should be about Him, every minute, every second. There are a million things you can talk to God about, there are a million things that you can learn from his Word and there are a million ways that you can praise Him. Enter into the love that God provides for you, the grace, mercy and forgiveness that is right in front of your face, every single day of your life. His blessings are plentiful, his love is deep, high, wide and so great. You might think that concentrating solely on God is a selfish thing to do, there are also others in your life that you should give attention to. That’s true, but the work that you put into your relationship with God and also everything that God puts into you ends up pouring out from you as it builds up. Everything that pours out of you then allows you to love others as well and take care of your relationships, school and work that you might have. When you experience everything that God is, his love, mercy and forgiveness, it changes who you are, making you into a new creation. You end up doing unto others just like God does to you, because you are so full of it that it just pours out. People see you in your class, at work, with friends and they wonder why you have this aura that you are something different. There is something about you that makes them wonder and the reason why you are like that is…. because of the relationship you have with God. So, love God. depend on Him for everything, even the simple things in life that seem so small that you don’t have to depend or talk to God about it. This is your priority right now, nothing else is as important as this right now. Get right with Him, through his love and all that he does for you.
Relationships are all about giving and taking, teaching and learning, talking and listening. You have to be willing to do both of these things to have a good relationship with someone, whether friend or family.
Some people only give in the relationships that they are in, thinking that it is best for them to help others and put others before themselves. They rarely do things for themselves or let others do things for them because of many different reasons. It is difficult for people to get into the person’s life, because they are so busy giving themselves to the other person in the relationship. They are busy giving because they are unwilling to let others let them do the taking, not letting others help them when they are in times of need.
Others are takers, looking for the help or company of the other person in the relationship for one reason or another. They are not usually solely takers throughout the entire relationship, they know they have to give once or twice in a relationship so that they can eventually take. Once they have given, they feel as though they can take as much as they need, when they need it. They think that the few times that they gave in the relationship is enough so that they both can be comfortable with the taker taking as much as they want. The taker relies on the giver for many things, personal things or everyday simple things. The giver is unable to rely on the taker, however, because the taker is simply too unreliable. The other person is doing all of the work in the relationship and is being sucked dry by the taker because the taker does not understand that the “giving and taking” should be passed back from one to another.
A good relationship is one where you know you can rely on the other person for help or anything you need, but the other person knows that they can rely on you for anything they need as well. It is always good to help others, but you can be sucked dry inside when only concentrating on helping others and not taking care of yourself. That’s why you need to be filled up yourself by others who you trust in and by others who care for you. Give someone a hug, but take a hug from someone as well. Teach someone something, but learn something from someone as well. Tell someone about your horrible day, but let someone blabber on about their horrible day as well.